Posted Dec 28, 2009 // 0 comments (+)
/ Edited at 10.06pm
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Like i'd mentioned to someone yesterday, regarding to the post that i'm writing today, it might or might not be a long one.
I really want to know the reason why i'd been so frustrated this entire week. Perhaps the blogskinning thing, and this particular thing had pissed me off. Alright, i shall start with my post now.
P/S : I'd fucking decided to post this for 2 people, go fucking figure it out yourself if you don't know i'm referring to YOU. _l_
I'd known that particular person for years, you should have longed know that i hate people who snatches your friends away. I'm not going to mention the particular person who snatch friends away, to save more troubles. He/she'll definitely know who i'm referring to.
I understand the fact that the both of us know each other's friends. And just this once, i regretted introducing you to my best* friend. You know how is it like to always stand by a side, to see how the hell the both of you are progressing? You can say i'm just a sour grape, and it's kind of obvious too. You know i'm unhappy 'bout it, and you're always trying to effing worsen the situation by telling me what the hell you did with him to have fun. Also, i know that they are people who are easy to get close with, so it's quite acceptable when you're close to 'em.
I don't give a damn to it anymore. The more i express my feelings out to you, the more you'll go. You know what's on my mind now? Firstly is that i'm extremely disappointed and pissed. Secondly, i am hating you more as the day passes by me. Lastly, you've made me felt as if you're no longer my friend, perhaps you're my friend - But never a true one. Tears just threatened to fall from my eyes, i guess i can never trust any of you again.
This is the first time in my life that i'm feeling this way towards someone whom i'd known for years. All we do after each fight, is to either that person which i'd introduced to you, or to find any other friends. But this isn't what i want. I want you, to pour every single bit of your feeling out to me. I just want to know the truth, my dear. :@
You know i'm always pouring out all my emotions in my blog right? So ya, i hope this won't offend you or anything. I know this post is somehow going to flare you up or something, but i just want to tell you how i felt all along. By saying just this sentence, you can say i'm being selfish here, but i can no longer take it anymore. Every of the words here, are fucking bottled up within me.
"A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else."
- Len Wein
To those that i'd shown attitude to :
I apologise for my bad attitude shown, to you.
I don't know why i'm acting this way, but i'm really sorry.
* refers to the fact that everything is fading, and you seem to be going too. ._.
I guess i shall end here, bye.