Posted Oct 30, 2011 // 0 comments (+)"It's like screaming, but no one can hear. You always feel ashamed that someone could be that important. That without them, you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless. Like nothing can save you. And when it's over, and it's gone, you almost wish you could have all that bad stuff back, so that you could have the good." - Rihanna's song, We Found Love. (Quoted from Isabel's blog)
I'm really lost. I wonder why do I even care so much to something that nobody cares, or rather knows. I hate myself for being all so sensitive all the time. But the feeling of losing a friend who knows me inside out, freaks me out entirely. I'd been feeling this way for a really long period of time. What am I to you? If only you could put yourself in my shoes, you'd get to experience agony. I'd tried letting you go, but to no avail. Do I really fail as a friend? Sigh. Time, that's what I need to heal these excruciating heartaches. I definitely have my reasons for not voicing out my thoughts. 我是真的有苦衷的。
If only you could read my mind, you'd face an emotional breakdown because you'd get to know what's really going on in my haywired mind. I guess it's time for me to let you go, and to find a new path in life. Afterall, life is all about adaptations, right? I wish you all the best. You may not know the reason why am I distancing myself away from you, but .. Right, I'm just so sorry for not being able to be by your side in the near future. Just forget about our friendship, perhaps, you'd already forgotten about me because of your new friends. I'm gonna miss you.